Dear Diary,I’ve come to understand why I’ve chosen tomboy fashion over ‘girly’ fashion; I know The Lord revealed to me why.…I’m afraid to be beautiful. I know that, at heart, I’m a “girly girl”. I’m just afraid to show it. Although I do like tomboy fashion, I’ve liked it for all the wrong reasons. I claimed to like it because it’s “comfortable”, when if fact, I only liked it to hide the true image I have for myself, and because it would hide the discomfort I feel in my own body.I’ve always liked the huge purses, glittery, over-sized, cutesy fashion; however, I was afraid to wear those things because I worried about other people’s thoughts. One reason I tend to pretend is because of what (private) will think.We both came up with my tomboy image, and to tell them I like girly fashion, I’m afraid they may laugh and make fun of me.The point is, I know what I like. I’m just too fearful to show it. Realizing how beautiful I may be frightens me; I think I’ll turn into this stuck up girl.Being beautiful scares me…
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To You…
I think about you all the time;
What you look like, how you are
Where you are, and if
You think about me.
I look forward to the day we meet.
I dream about me being in
Your embrace, how our
Lips will care for one another, and
How we will travel the world together.
I may not know you yet, but
I can’t wait ’til we meet
And spend together forever…
Never Let Go
My Lord holds my hand,
As I live through life.
I walk through a crowd of
Everything and everyone surrounding me.
Few are of delight, while others seem to frighten me.
I tremble, fearing how I may be snatched away;
Physically or emotionally.
All the while I forget my Lord is
Right beside me, holding my hand.
Surrounded by this crowd, which is the world,
I will never let go of my Lord’s hand.
I will always look to my Lord
So I may never be swept in the same direction,
And lost without a home.
I will never let go of my Lord’s hand.
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow Me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me,is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand.” John 10:27-29
Tick Tock
Standing there, it suddenly becomes quiet.
The clock is ticking and I realize
Time never slows down, or stops.
As we take breaks, time does not.
As we procrastinate, time does not.
As we are lazy, time is not.
As we are busy watching others…
Time goes on as we miss opportunities.
Tick tock says the clock.
What are you doing?
Empty Cravings
There is an emptiness that
Fills us once in a while.
We feel that something is missing,
But we don’t know what.
We began to crave what the
World views as “success”.
We began to want others to
Look at us, too.
We start to work
Harder and harder, just to
Be on top.
We over think,
We are unhappy,
We try to be like others,
And we become sad with
Our lives.
Don’t let this craving rule over you.
It is a dangerous crave.
When you began to feel
Empty and worthless,
Pray.
God will give you the power to be
Satisfied with your life, and the craving will go away.
It’s going to take time, but you will soon see
That you will have joy no matter what happens.
You will understand that
The craving was empty and not fulfilling.
And you will be glad that
You now crave a relationship with God,
Instead of unhappiness.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God; and the peace which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and mind through Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:6-7
#17
We all have these days. We feel like we are worth nothing, no one will ever know who we are, and we aren’t the perfect image the media would like for us to be. We’re either too dark or too light. We’re not skinny enough or we’re too skinny. Our hair isn’t long enough or our hair is too long. We’re too short or too tall. We don’t look like him or her, and we wish we could be him or her.
Like I said, we all have days when we feel like this. But like my mom tells me, “Don’t let your emotions lead you.” Which means, we shouldn’t let the way we feel at the moment have the final say of how our day, or life should turn out. If you can change something, change it because you want to, or because you want to try something new. Not because you hate yourself or because the media doesn’t approve of you. And if you can’t, pray and ask God to help you love the way He created you to be.
When you began to feel sad or depressed because of how you look, just remember what God says about you, “…For I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works and that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139:14
#16
Words
You should watch what you say,
And think before you speak.
What you say has an
Impact on your life, and other’s.
What you say about someone,
Or even yourself, could possibly
Come true.
You may say, “I was just joking.”,
Well…the enemy wasn’t.
“The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences.” Proverbs 18:21
#15
#14
We are miserable in the lives we live, so we try to live someone else’s. Soon, we realize that trying to live like them makes no difference, so we are more miserable than before. What does a fish look like, trying to live as a bird, and what does a bird look like, trying to live as a fish? Exactly. So…what do we look like trying to live as someone we’re not?





